If love can be quatified, it would be the earth, sky, and boundless light. True love would still remain a myth.
Who do you love today? [LINE] Saturday turned out much unexpectedly - got to the wedding to the attendance of many old classmates. It was a fun thing I guess. Granted, I do remember many of them by face, though not by name, and not really remembering much from there.
Alan and Fabian spent a lot of time telling me things way before '96, which I thought was really really sweet. The most touching thing they did was to forgive me for my memory loss.
Beyond that, Sunday was dead. I helped with the chores and as much as I hated to do that, guess Sunday was well spent.
Just met up with my little cousin Eric, youthful and handsome all, completely misunderstood and pressured to fulfill dreams that were never his. I did all I can to assure him of my support and allegiance. How silly, but yeah. Did just that. [LINE] The latest playlist is still With Me and Sarah's I Love you. [LINE] I'm beginning to lighten up I guess. Too many days of self-pity and wallowing. At least some people finally gave me straight answers of yeses and nos.
Nonetheless, I'll be watching out for traps.
The little music video for With Me is up on Nightalive. It's a little trial thingy, not much, just something I did to pass time. Hope you guys like it. Oh it's 22.5MB, so loading is nightmarish on a 56k Modem. Trust me, you don't want to wait that long. :wink:
Yeah well. I can't figure exactly what I'm upset with. I'm still thinking what the name means, or at least, what one story I can say about that name. It's good to be thinking hard, till the head spins and it makes you tired and you just can't take it anymore and you want to sleep.
I think I'll go for a run. At midnight you say? Yeah, gets my mind off many things I don't wish would come to pass. I'll go for a run.
Hi candystar! Thanks for adding me on to your list! And newbie? hmm.. Anycase, hope the stories from this side of the world gives a fresh perspective. [LINE] I can be so (if this is the word) resourceful sometimes! Half the video for With Me is out, and I managed to convince 2 guys to go topless for it! Okay Jean, this one's for you - one of them is Joshua.
Anycase, yes, gay as it may seem, it is intended to be. I'll be posting it up on the Nightsound portal soon once it's done! Should be exciting, and definitely within the next 2 weeks.
Other than that, things are just moving along, like a little stone stumbling on moss. Thursday's here, so have a great thursday all!
Within a few short days, there is so little one can gather about another - and then within a few short days, one can just be so enlightened. I am one such one, although there is a certain amount of hope that things will come around.
It's amazing what money can buy these days.
To top it off, there's always a difference between being yourself, and being somebody. When you're somebody, there will always be someone who thinks they can get something out of you and get away with it with puppy eyes, amongst all those who sincerely do wish you well, but whom we all neglect all the time.
A friend's getting married this weekend. I just hate being called up for this sort of thing, especially when we haven't kept in touch for years, and more than ten years to be exact. And whatever for? Not that people honestly misses me, but for what I can give. It's too darn obvious isn't it?
So, point blank honesty, who would you rather be with? Those who party with you? or those who silently run their support for you? [LINE] I finished a bottle of wine myself last night, after the first was opened when Wayne and Joshua were around in the office. I was so fucking sober till I dropped my keys in the cab, and realised it too late. In the misery, I opted to run after midnight - didn't get far with the world spinning ahead of me. Got home to wash up and prepare some documents that my dad requested for 2 days back. Then sis came home and asked for some blank CD-Rs.
I drove down to Mustafa, grabbed a pack, hit the convenience store for a bite, and promptly tried to sleep.
I could not.
So many things, so haunting. I so fucking hate to be living in so many things. If there's still one place I'd rather be, it's the stage. Wear a mask and enchant the crowd. At least a lot of people will love you for that much time altogether. It's almost inmeasurable. [LINE] "With Me" has been on my playlist like "Lady" for a week, and it looks set to keep itself there. For what it's worth, I wanted to post a link here, but too darn lazy to do it anyway.
Sometimes, those in love just don't want it, and those who don't have it crave it. In the most microscopic sense, people just cannot commit into anything. Proclaiming the greatest love only happens in Shakespere, and changing love is quicker than cloud formations these days. [LINE] Had been a pretty interesting weekend I suppose. To begin with, the week was totally relaxed. I finally finished Joshua's song "With Me" in the course of the week, then chilled out for wine at Home on Friday night and finished a Wayne's song "G" at 5 am with ChunWai, Joshua and the man himself, Wayne.
Saturday got really fried hot at the F1 Powerboat ordeal, returning with a lacklustre show all round. Managed to meet Mistaken Identity post-set after getting lost in Marina South, as well as the mizeryFree gang. I think both bands were really disappointed with the turn out...For me, the shocker still hooked me.
Went for a really ridiculous swim Saturday night at Angel's new apartment. Nice pool, great space, but ran into a major open house - how cool right? Of course I wasn't gonna swim in full view of those stuck-up pockets-filled upper class snobs, so we waited till 9plus before I finally jumped into the pool. Half an hour later, I got out. The water was too cold, and I was all aching after about 6 laps?
Sunday - I wanted to sleep - I got not much. Kept waking. Then, Joshua called me up in the evening to tell me there's a gig by Wayne's old friends. I went, got lost at Expo, and went into a big show. Yeah, I was backstage, but somehow, I wish I was playing more than meeting the band.
Anycase, like I said, was a big show, the band was good, Iron something, one of 2 biggest bands from Myannmar, and they were just about flawless in their execution. Nonetheless, its just time off from things these days.
We just got back from Derek's, Mathew's pub down at Changi. Nothing much there to do also. [LINE] I've been working on the visuals (MTV) for "With Me". It's just plain faces to begin with, but I'm putting some of the best looking guy faces on it, lip-syncing to the song. It's just so gay, the way I really want it this time. Something to try make all those homo-phobic asses on the NAC and SSC shoot themselves in their own foot to reject it if I ever send it to them!
It's just really soft visuals - I'm just being extremely anal (no puns intended) and completely unbudging over the directions. Just want to make another video that people can't watch for F's sake.
Save your own soul. [LINE] Another thing to get off my chest. I hope those who don't see the good in others to seriously find light at the end of their doomed tunnels. It doesn't matter where or who or what - but to turn away another with passion and love and whatever else sincere seems so cruel. [LINE] Seems like I haven't been posting pictures. I love visuals. They can be so expressive. Perhaps I should try learn more photography from Joshua and Wayne huh? :wink:
"..my destination makes it worth the while Pushing through the darkness still anotehr mile"
That put me in a really confused state of mind. On one hand, i believed, on another, I'm just so afraid. Where is that one road to move on to? [LINE] I'm relieved that things are more or less back on track. Mom's outta the white palace, but still a little under the weather, the family seems to be more in touch because of this, and most comfortingly...if there's such a word...is that I have some time to myself finally.
What I guess I need now is some directions. Any to offer?
Am just sitting here waiting for the hair to dry. So many days absent from work, then consistent drinking, late nights, then excreting idea after idea to freshen up and excuse myself from the world.
I'm exhausted.
What's on my playlist? I don't really want to know too.
Guess what? Did a search on google and the blog comes up! Thought this is supposed to be like kinda private or something? No?