I've been proven so wrong really - after weeks of observations, I finally concluded that some people are really more brauns than brains. And it is an extremely, excruciating, frightening, and disappointing find - airheads. Well, maybe its cos of youth and maturity. But I'm wagering this - have brauns, no brains = steak on a sizzling grill.
I think we need some pictures as proof here. :wink:
I think we need more good news in our lives, much like what Presi Aroyo did with the tabloid - 52 Dead headlined the papers today, and I didn't even give it a second look.
Fatigue has set in. Limps feel - missing. Head is swelling, tummy awful, legs throat hands - losing control over how I'm operating these.
There must be some loose connections within the framework. I gotta have a good rest - my body produces heat like a shockwavee. I can feel it, I eat too much and exercise too little, gets hot too quickly and needs to be cooled consistently. Or maybe its just the weather.
I wish I can say its none of my business, but I can't. The thought of gritted teeth tomorrow to finish 101 things really make sense now so that I can drink less sodas, rest tiredness and random spouts of temperament, and definitely nurse my wounds.
I'm beginning to lose control. But if I break, I know no-one can mend me back, least of all pick up the pieces - I'm slogging already. Life should cut me some slack before I snap.
Time seems to so stretch and then compress itself so suddenly. Work piles, and dates crash. I think the most horrid thing to happen now is not to comprehend why I'm losing my grip over my perspective towards things. It's like canoing through the mist in a public pool.
And I ran out of tissue paper.
I'm really tired. Sleepy. Sick of servicing myself. Darn, if there ever is a chance to live right, maybe I can stop fixing my broken body, spirit, and mind.
Ha. I just yawned. Again.
Was asking myself the other day: what's my motivation? What's keeps me going? Why am I still sane? I'm really surprised that despite taking a big leap into the deep end of creating a movement, then starting a business, followed by keeping positive with my mom's health, my family's well-being, my friends' interests, my partners' needs, I can't seem to figure out why I'm still doing it. If this is a passing phase I'll gladly go through it. But I'm feeling it more like a distaste in my work, a breakdown of trust in my life, and critically, escaping from being responsible about myself.
My health is fast deteoriating, and I can feel my head wearing away like wood meet axe. And the axe so happens to be the world I live in. Ouch.
Come to think of it, I just miss my weekends I suppose. I just want one weekend to myself and I should bounce back real quick, focus, and go. And I'm thinking of waking up in 3 hour's time so that I can finish up my myriad of work that isn't even giving me satisfaction. What satisfaction is there when you climb so high up the apple tree, look for the best apples, harvest a couple, and then realise I want mangoes instead. Or some grapes would be even better. It's one of those three-lined things that appear on japanese comics when a character hits a really silly snag.
Trilogy is my worst involvement at this point. Honestly, Trilogy should have been done like 2 years ago cos my head was clear and my heart was pure. But perhaps things happen for a good reason. Well, it better show up soon.
[b]"What ever happened to staying up at 4 o'clock, forget all that's all behind. To think about the time we sit and cried.
But I talk to myself, no words not a sound, there's evil around haunting me. But I talk to myself, my heart's beating loud, and louder louder.
What ever happened to You and I at 4 o'clock? Are we missing a beat in time? To have all my Heart, as we sit and cry."[/b]
I love this song! Finally finished a track that I am so darn excited about - cos it's gonna replace one for I which Josh and I both didn't quite enjoy I guess!
Nonetheless, it's been a really quiet week and everyone's kinda sleepy in the studios. But at least I got some time to try finish something that is 2 years in the making already - I album.
This probably kick starts a series of other projects in the pipeliine as well - Nightalive, maybe MTVs, but definitely reviews, promos, and all that yada yada blah blah.
Oh well, nothing much else is happening, except that maybe I should be talking to the walls proper. And someone's complaining about the Nightalive teaser ha~ :wink:
I've been proven so wrong really - after weeks of observations, I finally concluded that some people are really more brauns than brains. And it is an extremely, excruciating, frightening, and disappointing find - airheads. Well, maybe its cos of youth and maturity. But I'm wagering this - have brauns, no brains = steak on a sizzling grill.