How on earth is it possible that some people get all the luck all the time? The looks, the brains, the cash, the works? What was it that was done in their last life that brought them this life?
I'm upset man. Look at meself, asking really dumb questions which are so darn deep. So why do some people, like meself, deserve less than those at the top? Biggest question is, how come I got this dumb attitude and thinking, the works basically, while others are just born right?
Did I shift too much in mom? Or did mom squat too long that I'm too short on me everything?
Sigh. Question questions and I start questioning nothing. Somebody better wake me up. Yes yes, evanescence. [LINE] Updates: finally got the MTV thingy done, just gotta wait and see the end results. Hope of course all these work out or I would have wasted all me time. Pictures soon I hope. :?
I'm beginning to feel uncomfortable. No doubt, freedom feels good, but without people around the house, it just feels like solitude in a cell. I'm missing everyone.
Was just thinking on the way home too, how it would feel when our mates or ourselves leave - it's like the host leaving the party with a smile and never going back. That puts "loss" in a very huge and hurting situation, even though its for a while.
Let's see, a year plus blogging. That's really not too bad a track record for myself, even though pictures are getting lesser, text are getting shorter - still, this calls for a celebration! :wink:
I'm at a loss for many things - words, emotions, thoughts. [LINE] Tonight's the first time my dad talked about my uncle this way, "He's always been a good man, hardworking..." My uncle passed away earlier in the evening, and apparently, my dad didn't quite make it to the hospital in time to see him.
And my cousin Eric, well. He's sounding really low. I think it's going to be a long weekend.
As for me. Well. Nothing said, but keep trying to get things done. That's me for now - a fool in a hay stack looking for a needle.
I'm going to be sleepless, and I guess my dad is already.
And the night is alive.