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12.18.07 (3:16 am)   [edit]
It's always a different look in a different locale: some are just as blue as sapphire that blurs the vision, others, cool as ice. Yet, some others are botched with puffy clouds and the rest are just simply dull beyond description.

I guess being stationed in the city most of the time just made it difficult to gauge what kind of skies are out there. It's like, I envy those superfluous look in the pictures of travels that I've become so accustomed to drool over. I'm not complaining, but liabilities at this point just shot me consistently in the foot, leaving little room to maneuver beyond envy.

Perhaps being me had its perks before, but now, it's just a bundle of confusion. It's where next? I've been through so many adventures, and every one memorable, yet, they just seem so out of place now. I hate to admit, but growing up is even more painful when there are more things that wants to get done.

I need a change in pace maybe. It's screwing me over so much that being in step seemed off-sync from realism facinism. Oh get over it. There will be so many re-hashed words in this blog and throughout all the posts that you probably wouldn't even know why they are being used in the first place.

Something struck me lately though, that when you push hard enough ahead, the battle might still be lost. Not because there aren't any more motivational support, but the all-round drive is flawed from the very beginning. Money does seem to solve a lot of problems as the Age of Aquarius presses on, but somehow, it wasn't meant to be so in the first place. Something went wrong somewhere.

So says the wise men. Couple of days ago, and I procrastinated writing about this, I was standing in the open carpark waiting for some people, had a smoke, and near its end, exhale the smoke upwards for the first time the whole day, and a star fell right over me and fizzled behind a block of apartments. It was so bright it almost seemed like a light bulb crashing at length in front of me. It was frightening for a split second, for it wasn't what I had imagined to see in an almost eventful day. I kinda heard my heart pound hard.

But honestly, doesn't really matter. Good or bad, I've grown so used to being subjected to the elements and the ethereal that it doesn't make my hair stand like it used to. What's more, it's like those little freebies at the hypermart that were seemingly worthwhile, but turned out to be worse than worthless.

Hence, why fret when it has become a sign for the future, but a leap to nowhere? And eventually to find ourselves thrown into another situation just like the last one that led us to this?

I guess being stretched has come to its threshold - no use fighting the war when it was over a long time ago without fighting. Fighting is a dirty word, but why fight that too? I've noticed some used-to-bes straying further from the familiar to venture into the unknown, like how I used to. I've got this to say: sure, forget this old chap who held your head high in the highest esteemed gesture. But remember, to remove the support that played a part in the whole stage setting would have released the weights that held it up.

Leverage wouldn't be needed had there been more firm hold on humility.

Look who's talking yeah? LOL. I feel the heat more than you are sensing for sure. Someone once said I have the enormous ability to conjure guilt to its utmost utter peak, I say, if you aren't, why feel so?

Jean, I kinda gave up waiting for you to come back home. Still, if you have a spare room, I would love to move over for a while. I'm sick of being in Singapore paying my dues over past lies, deceit, masquerade and role-play. For once, it be nice to have everything off my back and just feel light. I'm a pretty good chef...

I hate the city.
 

posted by: J (reply)
post date: 12.27.07 (8:50 am)

I have plenty of room, just me alone. I don't have a home to go to. So pls come over whenever you like. You are always welcome.


posted by: reqx (reply)
post date: 12.28.07 (2:02 pm)

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